I'm Not Alright by Sanctus Real

if weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
then cool is just how far we have to fall
i am not immune-i only wanna be loved
but i feel safe behind the firewall
can i lose my need to impress?
if you want the truth, i need to confess

i'm not alright- i'm broken inside, broken inside
and all i go thru-it leads me to you, it leads me to you

burn away the pride, bring me to my weakness
'til everything i hide behind is gone
and when i'm open wide with nothing left to cling to
only you are there to lead me on
'cuz honestly, i'm not that strong

i'm not alright- I'm broken inside, broken inside
and all i go thru-it leads me to you, it leads me to you

(and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved)closer to you
(and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved)closer to you
(and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved)closer to you
(and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved, and now i'm moved)

i'm not alright-i'm broken inside, broken inside
i'm broken inside, broken inside
and all i go thru leads me to you, leads me to you

i'm not alright-i'm not alright-i'm not alright
thats why i need you

Linger by Cranberries

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

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Well I guess I'm such a fool.

Getting a LIFE

It's been almost a year since I've moved here in California with my family. All I've been thinking about is how to go back and visit the Philippines. But that will have to be put aside.

I badly need to get a life, a decent one. I have had no real friends aside from my cousins and my co workers. (That is just bad -.-)

Well I've decided that instead of saving to go back to the Philippines, I'll just do the following:

1.) I'll just get myself new clothes (that actually looks good on me).

2.) Grow my hair and have a new hair style. If long hair really doesn't work for me then I guess I have to go back to the short "decent" hair style.

3.) Look healthy. Maybe put on a few more pounds (muscles not fat, that ain't good). Just finally get me out of the "thin" look I had since who knows when.

4.) Get a car. Now this is really what I need. This will help me a lot. Though this will also come with expenses, it's benefits will be greatly appreciated.

5.) A desktop or a new laptop. I'd prefer a desktop since it's a lot better for gaming and it's cheaper too. But I'll get this after I get everything else.

I can go back to the Philippines sometime after I really get etablished over here. It's just too stupid to keep on wanting to live my old life when there's already a new one.

Well I hope I get some friends this Fall.

Jealous

Well it's been a while since I posted something here. Might be because there's just nothing new happening in my life, and it might be because I'm too lazy >P

You know, I could count in my two hands the number of pictures that I have with friends...

This is what drives people into dropping huge space colonies onto earth!

On another note I have updated my Ragna Comics ng Faraday! Well at least there it's full of laughs.